Collage Friday (Insta-collage)

Do you guys insta-follow me yet? @keishbobeish

The Box Project

So I joined Tumblr a few months ago and I've truly found my home. Why did they not have/I not know about this when I was in High School? I would have felt so much less alone. At least what I've seen; Tumblr is a group of introverted, fandom-crazed, anxiety-ridden, lovable, girls&boys that get together and share the things they love with the world. They are funny, clever, kind, understanding people {mostly} and I feel like I fit there. There actually are people out there that love Supernatural & Benedict Cumberbatch & Tom Hiddleston & Marvel Comics & Paris & England & Cupcakes & EVERYTHING I love as much as I love them--and they're not made fun of or shunned-they are embraced and cheered on. 

There's the lovely ladies that run a blog that posts about the beauty that is Tom Hiddleston--I mean have you SEEN this post? and they {hiddleston-daily} decided it would be fun to send Tom a package from his fans for his birthday. They got bombarded with gifts from all over the world! I thought it was such a great idea--I had to get in. I've been wanting to write to him and let him know how much I adored him as an actor and his happy personality--and what a better way to do that then send it with dozens of other love notes for his birthday.

I wanted to send something unique too, so I thought 'Why not send one of my illustrations?' He's been so many incredible characters, so I picked a few of my favorites and sketched them out for him. What fun!

I'm really excited for him to get the package and so grateful for the ladies at hiddleston-daily for sponsoring such a fun gift! Tom, you gorgeous man, we love you!


p.s. I'm brilliantlovely on tumblr if you want to follow :)

Smash Book Highlights

Have I mentioned I love Smash/Sketch Book-ing? ;) Here's a few of my favorites from a couple books ago:

Cupcakes

One thing I really enjoy are Cupcakes. They seriously make any day better. My favorite place in the whole world {besides Disneyland} is Sweet Tooth Fairy. They have the prettiest cupcakes and the nicest girls that work there. I always feel like home when I walk into the vanilla-frosting aroma. Yum!

This is the Classic Red Velvet Cupcake. yum.

It's time

My life lately has taken a turn that has changed everything. Not only have I been struggling with sorting out things that have happened in my family, but my poor body is struggling to keep up. I've been to doctor after doctor since my last semester in college trying to figure out what is wrong. After tons of blood tests we found out I have problems with my Thyroid which causes exhaustion, depression, weight gain, etc. Which is fine. A small pill daily fixes this for most people. Which it really did for me. For about a year. Looking back on it now, I was feeling really good-exercising everyday, had energy, smiled, enjoyed things...

Then I started feeling crappy again. I adjusted my medications, got on some that made me feel crappier, adjusted again...by now I feel almost toxic with all the crap I've swallowed-all with the hope that it would help me feel better.

Still not feeling great, I heard of a doctor that specialized in thyroid problems and hormone replacement. I heard his office had helped a lot of people, so I made an appointment.

My doctor is the sweetest thing. She explains everything so well and makes me feel like I really will get better.

We switched and added some medications...it's been 3 months and I still feel so crappy. I have no energy. I seriously drag myself to work, come home at 5:00 and get straight into bed. I'm 23 years old! I should have energy to go out and meet people and have fun...but all I do is lay in bed and watch Netflix.

Which is fine every once in a while. But everyday!?--and I don't even have enough energy to go hang out with my friends once a week? It's getting ridiculous. 

I want to feel good. I have so much to do with my life. I have so many dreams that need to come true. 

I deserve to feel good.

I saw on Instagram a few people that, instead of New Years Resolutions, pick a Word of the Year and strive to be/do/expand that word the whole year. I love that idea, so one night I picked up my pen and wrote down a list of words that I would like to become. They were all good: (healthy, happy, joyful, creative, helpful) but one stood out to me-it was my word. It would be hard-especially with how I've been feeling; but life will never be PERFECTly how I dreamed, so I need to be able to enjoy my life in spite of things that happen to me.

In French "enjoy" is "jouir"...take it a step further and make it "jouir de" and it means {enjoy, delight, have a hell of a time}.

I'm trying to {slowly} learn French this year too, so this fit in perfectly with the goals I want to achieve.

There are so many people out there that feel way worse than me and manage to enjoy their life-why shouldn't I be able to?!

I'm sick of waiting to feel better before I do things I've wanted to do my whole life.

 Life is too fragile to not enjoy it. 

I'll still go to the doctor and try to find things to help my body feel better-but my mindset has to change from "endure" to "enjoy". Not necessarily "happy" because to me that means {smiling ear to ear, laughing hysterically, playing games...} aka, exhaustion to me right now.

But to really ENJOY something you are sitting back and looking at the good among the bad. 

It's a slower adjective. A fuller heart. A fuller mind. A fuller life.

That's what I need right now. And what I'll need for the rest of my life. 

I'll start slow, but eventually I know I'll accomplish everything I've ever dreamed.

Guest Posting Tutorial

Hey kids! I'm guest-blogging at My Life, My Love today sharing my Wire Headband Tutorial! 

Kelsie is and AMAZING blogger, wife, designer, photographer, and soon-to-be mama! 

We met in college in the Interior Design program and have been friends ever since! :)

Come on over!