As I was walking to class one early morning a few months ago, I started thinking about my upcoming graduation and the things I have learned. The sun was just coming up and shining through the windows of the new building coming up on campus and it looked just like a rendering we would do for one of our classes. I started thinking about the word render and what parallels it had to my life.
<RENDER/> a: to give in return or retribution; b: give back, restore; c: to give in acknowledgment of dependence or obligation; d: to do (a service) for another; e: to cause to be or become; f: to reproduce or represent by artistic or verbal means, depict; g: a rendition, translation, interpretation, or performance
As I've been living back at home trying to find a "grown-up" job, I have sometimes wondered why. Why haven't I found a job yet? Why did I have to move back home? Why did I graduate early if I've been wasting time and not working for my future?
Through lots of prayer and talks with mom I think I've come to realize my calling in life for right now. To live A Rendered Life. This is my chance to give back. To restore areas of my life and other's lives. To serve my family, serve in my ward, even serve some strangers. To perform my best in areas I may have been lacking, to interpret the many choices and things in my life into Heavenly Father's plan for me, and become the person I am meant to be.
Life is completely different than I had planned, but I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing right now. My life is a rendering. This blog is my chance to translate my interpretation of life into the blog-o-sphere.
Things always seem better when you talk them (or type them) out. That's why I love blogging and writing. My life is adventurous right now! and I don't want to forget a thing! Read along, skim through, or just glance at the pictures--but no matter how you read, enjoy!
My "top 5" of happy things in my life: Photography, Music, Movies, Design, and Fashion. Life is about finding the things that make you happy and filling your life with them. My goal for this blog and for life is to fill my life with pictures, songs, films, sketches, and style. Leave your comments, questions, thoughts, etc--I'd love to hear from you!
You are such a great example to me and I wish I was able to portray my feelings as well as you do! I was actually trying to figure out exactly what "render" meant and its description and what you are doing with this blog is just that! Love you so much and look up to you so much! Keep being yourself and sharing it with us because it brightens our lives to hear from you!
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